"Start by doing what is necessary, then what is possible, and suddenly you are doing the impossible." -St. Francis of Assisi
My husband presented me with this quote at breakfast one morning recently, and I think I would do well to have it become my mantra. Even with part-time childcare, I can't seem to get more than a few hours of weekly studio time right now. With a little baby at home, tending to the necessities of my daugther comes first, and that is as it should be.
Perhaps as I hit my stride as a mother, doing more as an artist will also become possilble. At present, though, what used to come easily in the studio now feels like a real struggle. This painting is kind of crawling along in fits and starts. Here's what I have so far:
Given that I am only getting about 2 hours of painting time in at any given session (which unfortunately still doesn't occur all that often) I can't really work alla prima (wet-into-wet) which has always been what I prefer. The canvas size is 30"x24", and each time I return to the easel, the paint has dried pretty much completely. I feel like I am doing extra work at each session just to try andÂ open it back up again.
It's not as if every other painting I have ever done has been completed in one session, but for some reason, this multi-sessioned piece feels like more of a struggle. Maybe it is just the lack of continuity that has me stumped. Or maybe it's the lack of decent sleep! But whatever it is, I feel a bit like an inattentive reader, who keeps having to read the same page over and over again because her mind keeps wandering.
Still, in spite of my difficulties, I do feel grateful that it's possible to have a little time to paint again. Just starting something new and moving the paint around a bit feels good, even if finishing anything still sometimes feels like an impossibility!